Thursday, August 11, 2011

Things I Love Thursday - Part 6

DISCLAIMER - If you are not currently a smoker, or have never been a smoker, I lovingly request you SHUT YOUR PIE HOLE on telling me how terrible smoking is.

I've had many unhealthy relationships with people and substances.  My current and hardest to quit is smoking. I love smoking.  I am in the process of quitting and will be done by October.  I know I can do it using what I know about sobriety and the 12 Steps.  But for right now, damn, I love smoking.

This is sort of my mourning period as I've already cut way down. But in order to be done, just like with drinking, I have to say goodbye and mourn my loss.  Which this post is helping with.  I am a smart girl, I know it's bad and terrible and everything about it sucks.  I don't need any more reasons to quit. 

I've smoked about 10 ciggys every day for 10 years.  Every one of those has been delightful, I mean awful. 
It really was the lesser of two evils when I quit drinking to pick up smoking (at 28 years old, GENIUS). But it is time to move on. 

I don't need the crutches any more.  I gave up the Zoloft and that's going just fine (so far).  I can get through cravings and I can get through feelings just as I have with drinking. 

I am getting so close to being absolutely done.

Except that smoking is still pretty fucking wonderful.


  1. I like that you are going about quitting things you don't want in your life in a very scheduled way- it probably helps a ton to do it that way?

  2. I don't know what I'm doing, I just want change!

  3. I started smoking at 27 when I got divorced. I thought I was the only person who did that! :)

  4. I have loved cigarettes ever since I stole one from my neighbor when I was six years old. I started really smoking when I was 18. I was never one of those who bated to be around smokers. Although I quit 5 years ago, there are still days where I wake up and its all I can think about...but I plug on through it. My hats off to are such a quitter of all the hard things :)