|This is my LIFE IS SO FUCKING GOOD face. Mascara running. You jerks are writing such nice stuff it's making me cry!|
I realize this isn't something people usually shout from the rooftops, but I've never been more proud of anything than getting and staying sober. I know that talking about this helps other people, and ultimately, that is the greatest high I get these days. It's how I give back for what was given to me, and continues to be given to me.
Short and sweet, I am so grateful. At the basest level, I'm grateful to be alive and healthy. There were many times I know I could have cashed it in or did stupid things that could have gotten me cashed in, and I'm so glad those things didn't happen.
On another level, I am so very grateful for the people along the way who have picked me up, continued to deal with my bullshit, and just loved me through all of it. For people who said, "we won't love you to death", and let me go until I cleaned up my act, I am super grateful.
Not a believer in any kind of religion, or any one god type figure, I do believe in something. Some karmic universal power. What I believe is you get back what you put out into the world. Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. That helps keep me sober. I'm not asking for your approval. I'm telling you what works for me.
I am so grateful for AA and the 12 steps. It is my church. It gives me strength and helps me to help others. The people in those rooms are some of the best people I've ever known. I've said it before and I will say it again, if we didn't laugh our asses off in there, why would be go? I mean, sure, we cry and talk about serious stuff, but perhaps the most important thing to me is that we all laugh so hard with each other. I've met people who have helped me get and stay sober, and then others ask me for help and I help. That is how this whole thing works.
Big gratitude for people who in no way have a drinking problem, my friends and family who listen to my shit and we all laugh while they have a drink, I encourage it! Seriously, have one, or twelve, for me. I am laughing too. It's all good. My husband is a "normie". But damn is he in love with me. And respectful of all of this. He's celebrating today as much as I am, as we both know we wouldn't have this great life together if I weren't sober. Dumpster Baby or not, we have a great life together.
We are all tiny grains of sand, it's when we all join together that we cover huge amounts of space. You all are my grains of sand. I cannot do this alone.
Cheesy? You betcha. Deadly serious. As all fucking get out. I live to laugh. And I get to live because I am sober.
Now, the most valuable fake gold I will own today.......