|KABLAMMO! Times TWO!|
And, ONE BOY AND ONE GIRL! My brilliant idea is to name them Hall & Oates (the girl would be Hall, NAT.), but I can't seem to get Christopher to commit to that. YET.
We had pretty much one shot here with the In Vitro. And we have gotten the best possible outcome. I don't know how or why this happened for us and doesn't for so many others and as happy as I am, I also know the heartbreak that others feel as a result of it not working. All I can say is, my heart goes out to you, I am teary even thinking about it. Every time I think about it out loud with my husband, we just keep saying, "We are so very lucky." And I won't stop saying that or believing that for the rest of our lives. No matter what happens. When you've been in the shit, You appreciate every damn gift that is given to you. And I've been in the shit. I don't regret any of it. I am absolutely in awe of what is happening. We can't quite believe it. You hope for the best and prepare yourself for the worst.
We've been living in this limbo, as the doctors scared the ever loving shit out of us as we are "older" and twins run more of a risk for something being wrong. So for these last three months, while we've been ecstatically happy to be pregnant with twins, we've been terrified and walking on eggshells. We didn't know if we would have both babies with us. We can safely say now that while we are not ever out of danger until they come out of me - and then there's only the rest of their lives to worry about - we feel much more confident that they are both hanging around for the ride.
We had so much to be grateful for before finding out this great news. We are the most grateful little family you will ever hope to meet. I say this all the time, I deserve nothing. Life owes me nothing. So every single gift I am given, I am so grateful for, it's completely overwhelming. I don't deserve this. It is only through sobriety and doing the next right thing that I have every gift in my life. Not quickly either. It starts on the inside and it manifests in that great big smile and belly laugh you hear from me on a regular basis. GRATITUDE.
Now, let's talk about serious business from the front:
Complete and utter nonsense from the side: